Post by calista madison hart on Apr 1, 2009 23:31:20 GMT -5
CALISTAmadisonHART
i felt a surge of pity, and relief
pity because, as beautiful as they were
they were outsiders, clearly not accepted
relief that i wasn’t the only newcomer here
and certainly not the most interesting by any standard.
[/sup]i felt a surge of pity, and relief
pity because, as beautiful as they were
they were outsiders, clearly not accepted
relief that i wasn’t the only newcomer here
and certainly not the most interesting by any standard.
.twenty. .flirt. .drummer.
clearly, today was going to be nightmarish.
.i tried to be diplomatic
but mostly i just lied a lot.[/center]
completestrangeri do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory[/size]
samecliquethe thing,i thought to myself… it had possibilities — as a nickname, at the very least.
firstnameI stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful
acquaintancei can do this, i lied to myself feebly. no one was going to bite me
barelyfriendsi was in disbelief that i’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me
fakefriendsi stared straight ahead as i passed the volvo, but from a peripheral peek, i would swear i saw him laughing
newfoundfriendshe unleashed the full, devastating power of his eyes on me, as if trying to communicate something crucial.
partyfriendsi tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what i had just seen — a solution that excluded the assumption that i was insane
drinkingfriendi don’t like to lie – so there’d better be a good reason why i’m doing it.
workfriendsi was consumed by the mystery edward presented. and more than a little obsessed by edward himself
enemiesturnedfriendshe wished he hadn’t pulled me from the path of tyler’s van — there was no other conclusion i could come to
familyfriendsi watched as his golden eyes grew perceptibly darker day by day. but in class i gave no more notice that he existed than he showed toward me. i was miserable.
childhoodfriendsi couldn’t allow him to have this level of influence over me. it was pathetic. more than pathetic, it was unhealthy
goodfriendsi almost had a stroke when i rounded the corner and saw a tall, dark figure leaning against the side of my truck.
closefriendsi considered taking out the rear of his shiny volvo, but there were too many witnesses
confidantsmy foot itched toward the gas pedal… one little bump wouldn’t hurt any of them, just that glossy silver paint job
bestfriendsmaybe it was just a very convincing dream that i’d confused with reality
bestguyi just wondered… if you could warn me beforehand the next time you decide to ignore me for my own good. just so I’m prepared
bestgalbot a big deal when you’re seven and with your dad. it reminded me of edward’s request — that i not fall into the ocean.
partnersincrimewhy couldn’t ever have a pleasant conversation with mike anymore without it getting awkward?
attachedathehipdo you think that if i ran him over with my truck he would stop feeling guilty about the accident
practicallyfamilyi knew exactly where my pepper spray was — still in my duffle bag under the bed, never unpacked.
.good luck tended to avoid me.
burninhelli thought you were supposed to be pretending I don’t exist, not irritating me to death
hardcorehatredit felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.
hateyouso i figure if i endanger his life, then we’re even, and he can’t keep trying to make amends.
hatemethere were so many questions that i couldn’t bombard him with till we were by ourselves
mutualhatei decided as long as i was going to hell, i might as well do it thoroughly
dislikeyouyou scared me for a minute there. i thought newton was dragging your dead body off to bury it in the woods.
dislikemehonestly — i’ve seen corpses with better color. i was concerned that i might have to avenge your murder.
mutualdislikedon’t be offended, but you seem to be one of those people who just attract accidents like a magnet
barelytolerableyou’re not a magnet for accidents — that’s not a broad enough classification. you are a magnet for trouble. if there is anything dangerous within a ten-mile radius, it will invariably find you.
slightlytolerablei’ve never tried to keep a specific person alive before, and it’s much more troublesome than i would have believed. but that’s probably just because it’s you. ordinary people seem to make it through the day without so many catastrophes.
hatedbyassociationi can’t be sure, of course, but i’d compare it to living on tofu and soy milk; we call ourselves vegetarians, our little inside joke.
cheatedonyoui do want to know what you’re thinking — everything. i just wish… that you wouldn’t be thinking some things.
cheatedonmeof course, keeping you safe is beginning to feel like a full-time occupation that requires my constant presence.
jealousofyoupeople are predictable. but you… you never do what i expect. you always take me by surprise
jealousofmeit’s not only your company i crave! never forget that. never forget i am more dangerous to you than i am to anyone else.
rivalryi’m not about to let you behind the wheel of a vehicle when you can’t even walk straight. besides, friends don’t let friends drive drunk.
friendlyrivalrythe feeling that coursed through me then was unnerving, staggering. and i knew i couldn’t ignore you any longer.
intimidateyouyou don’t realize how incredibly breakable you are. i can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when i’m with you.
intimidatemei may not be human, but i am a man
indifferencewhat am i going to do with you? yesterday i kiss you, and you attack me! today you pass out on me!
frustratingi can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?
.it was impossible… to stop.
impossible
but i did. i must love you.
impossible
but i did. i must love you.
truelovethe odds are always stacked against us. mistake after mistake. i’ll never criticize romeo again
loveyouwhen i told you that i didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.
lovemei’ll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me. look after my heart — i’ve left it with you.finalfinalyou gave me two alternatives that you could live with, and i chose the one that i could live with. that’s how compromise is supposed to work.definitefutureyou know that i’ve stolen, i’ve lied, i’ve coveted… my virtue is all i have left.
possiblefuturehe was a fool to think you could survive alone. i’ve never seen anyone so prone to life-threatening idiocymarriedso you seduced your all-too-willing husband. that’s not a capital offense.
engagedin summary, she did jump off a cliff, but she wasn’t trying to kill herself. bella’s all about the extreme sports these days.
currenthaven't you noticed yet, bella, that edward is just the teeniest bit prone to overreaction?
pastgoodtermsonce you cared about a person, it was impossible to be logical about them anymore.
pastbadtermslast spring break, i’d been hunted by a vampire, too. i hoped this wasn’t some kind of tradition forming
chemistryromeo wouldn’t change his mind. that’s why people still remembered his name, always twined with hers: romeo and juliet. that’s why it was a good story. “juliet gets dumped and ends up with paris” would have never been a hit
wantyoubackit was very strange, for i knew we were both in mortal danger. still, in that instant, s felt well. whole.
wantmebacki’d forgotten that i had access to a toothbrush. it brightened my outlook considerably.
physcialattractionhe continued to kiss my hair, my forehead, my wrists… but never my lips, and that was good. after all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating?physicalrelationshiphis mouth was on mine then, and i couldn’t fight him. not because he was so many thousand times stronger than me, but because my will crumbled into dust the second our lips met
secretrelationshipthe fairy tale was back on. prince returned, bad spell broken. i wasn’t sure exactly what to do about the leftover, unresolved character. where was his happily ever after?
indenialhis touch brought with it the strangest sense of relief — as if i’d been in pain and that pain had suddenly ceased.
forbiddenthe idea of being in danger from even the most deadly of humans while i was with alice or edward was downright hilarious
sexualtensioni knew i had about three seconds before he would sigh and slide me deftly away, saying something about how we’d risked my life enough for one afternoon.
mutualcrushhe pulled my face away from his, breaking my hold with ease — he probably didn’t even realize that i was using all my strength.
crushonyouyou are… well, not exactly the love of my life, because i expect to love you for much longer than that. the love of my existence.
crushonmeporsches as bribes and king-sized beds in houses where nobody slept — it was beyond irritating.
flirtingi tried to make my smile alluring, wondering if i was laying it on too thick. he smiled back, though, looking allured
onenightstandi’m going to spontaneously combust one of these days — and you’ll have no one but yourself to blame.fuckbuddiessex was the key all along? why didn’t i think of that? i could have saved myself a lot of arguments.
makeoutbuddiesall was silent for a long moment. the living descendants of magic and legend stared at one another across the fire with sadness in their eyes.
.you. got. food. in. my. hair.
siblingsedward and alice playing chess was one of the funniest things i’d ever seen. they’d sat there nearly motionless, staring at the board, while alice foresaw the moves he would make and he picked the moves she would make in return out of her head. they played most of the game in their minds; i think they’d each moved two pawns when alice suddenly flicked her king over and surrendered. tt took all of three minutes.[/size]
parentmy dad was not a man of many words, and the effort he had put into trying to orchestrate a sit-down dinner with me made it clear there were an uncharacteristic number of words on his mind.
familyyou know edward, as a brother, you are sometimes a disappointment
futurefamilyi don’t care whose idea it was. how could you do this to me? i expect that kind of thing from edward, but not from you. i love you like you were my own sister.
extendedfamilyi don’t mean that i have any aversion to you as a sister. it’s just that… this is not the life i would have chosen for myself. i wish there had been someone there to vote no for me.
inlawsi’m really glad edward didn’t kill you. everything’s so much more fun with you around.
teacherstudenyou’re monopolizing the bride. let me dance with my little sister. this could be my last chance to make her blush.
emotionalsupportso it’s still standing? i would’ve thought you two had knocked it to rubble by now. what were you doing last night? discussing the national debt?
goodinfluencethere’s always a risk for humans to be around the cold ones, even if they’re civilized like this clan was. you never know when they might get too hungry to resist.
badinfluencebears don’t want to eat people. we don’t taste that good. of course, you might be an exception. i bet you’d taste good.
protectivenormal humans run away from monsters, bella. and i never claimed to be normal. just human.
admirationdid you seriously just stamp your foot? i thought girls only did that on TV
roommateuntil your heart stops beating, bella. i’ll be here — fighting. don’t forget that you have options.
housematedr. fang isn’t sure how much pain medication i need, so he’s going with trial and error. think he overdid it.
stalkeras long as you like me the best. and you think i’m good-looking—sort of. i’m prepared to be annoyingly persistent.
other(specify)well, i’m so sorry that i can’t be the right kind of monster for you, bella. i guess i’m just not as great as a bloodsucker, am i?
.stupid, shiny volvo owner.
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